"I am not my hair, but my hair is me"

This piece is more of a 'journal entry' than creative writing. But considering the description of this blog is that it's where I put my thoughts and feelings into words, it seemed quite fitting to post it here. Maybe a few girls can relate to this.


The Aussie shampoo philosophy is "there's more to life than hair but it's a good place to start" and this sums up what I believe hair is all about.
I've been doing a lot of self-reflection/ soul-searching lately (I guess nearing the quarter century age mark does that to a person, lol :)) and I've come to realize that any time I've done something drastically different to my hair, it was concurrent with some changes in my life. I won't say my changing hair led to life changes but in a way, the hair always seemed to finish off or complete what my inner self had already started.
Roughly about a week ago (at the time of writing), I cut off my hair. A few months prior to that I made the decision to quit using relaxers, hair extensions etc, etc and literally go back to my roots. I have found that this was in a way an external manifestation of my internal frustrations and metamorphosis.
Cutting my hair has freed me in so many ways - physically; no more annoying and expensive trips to the salon for one (at least not for a while yet, haha!) and psychologically; too personal to put here ;).
I see my short hair as a new beginning, a clean slate to write on; a 'tabula rasa' of sorts. And as my hair grows, so will I grow along with it. I might make a few mistakes along the way, but that's what growing up is all about.
     - 3rd May, 2012

My 'tabula rasa'  hair ;)

My Sister/Me

This poem was inspired by the relationship I share with my dear sister and I wrote it one vacation when we were spending the holidays away from each other. To have a sister and consider her a best friend is one of the greatest blessings a girl can have and one which I always thank God for. The poem says it all, so read and enjoy ;).


Two halves of a whole
that's what we are.
I'm here, you're there
Still,
Feels as though you're here
and I'm there.


As opposite as night to day
Yet the same in every way.
I shout,
You whisper.
Just a glance 
and a secret is shared.


We laugh
and it's the same.
You fall,
I feel the pain.
I annoy you,
you annoy me
Yet,
we're two halves of a whole.
One mind, one heart, one soul.
                     - July, 2009. 

Flying Free

I'm posting poems because I haven't had time to focus on writing a full-length story. This poem is also another 'blast from the past'. There are two reasons why I haven't posted any of my newly written poems; 1. they are still too personal for me to put out here and 2. there aren't that many new poems of mine (yet). I'll have no choice but to put them up once I run out of these old ones, lol. Enjoy and let me know what you think ;).


Came at the right time
though it was the wrong time;
felt like it should be a crime.
But how can something so perfect
ever be wrong?

Gave me the courage to do
All I never could
because I was too much a fool
To take that scary step,
To find what was out there,
To find a breath of fresh air.

Not sure what it is,
It certainly feels like bliss,
Something that sets me free
that I'm glad I did not miss.
                     - 2009.   

Doubting...

Yet another blast from the past i.e 2005. I wonder how many people have found themselves in this situation, not knowing how the other person feels about you.... Let me know what you think.
Enjoy ;)!

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The anxiety is smothering me,

Threatening to pull me under.

Here I’m not meant to be,

Here on the verge of surrender.

The wondering is choking me,

Trying to halt my breath.

Can you not see

The nearness of my death?

The questions keep hounding,

Finding me in my deepest refuge.

These doubts are abounding

Like an unannounced  deluge.

Capture the anxiety,

The wondering do let flee

Give answers to these questions

And doubts turn to mere apparitions.

Then finally will I be sure

Of all that I feel.

That here you’ll always be,

Only mine forever more. 

                    - February, 2005.